心不甘疼痛
心不甘疼痛
她以为他没有亲人，早就把自己当作他的亲人了。他可以为了自己的荣耀，为了升官发财而欺骗她，出卖她，那么多年的感情在他眼中不过是自己事业的垫脚石。青梅竹马的感情，两小无猜的生活，都是他精心设计的圈套，所有的一切都是为了瓦解最爱她的父亲那势不可挡的黑势力。她却傻傻地愿意被出卖，还和他一起瞒骗自己最亲的人，可是她以为最坏的结果也不过是家人落魄街头。唯有没有想到的会是生死离别，此生再无阳光。曾经出现在她生命里的明媚，成为了她生命里最黑暗的记忆。因为他，她最美好的十年时时刻刻都生活在地狱中。在那样可怕的地狱里，没有欢笑，没有泪水，只有来自那些疯子般可怕的人的无尽折磨，连喜怒哀乐也变得麻木。明明那么绝望了，为什么还要活着，连身体都再也感受不到温度了，就连一个爱自己的人也没有了，为什么还没有死去。身体明明已经变得遍体鳞伤了，心却还没有停止跳动，为什么呢？
那十年，她在那个铜墙铁壁包围着的世界里无数次问自己，结果自己都麻木了，想放弃了。却不知哪里来的力气，硬生生撑下去了。所有的答案就是因为不甘心。不甘心自己的人生在被毁得面目全非之后，他却还能够用她的所有换来的机会活得更好。如今他美人在怀，依旧潇洒，只怕再也记不起曾经那个为他付出所有的她了。怎么能够，他怎么能够活得这样没心没肺。就算还要体会一次又一次撕心裂肺的痛，也要让他体会自己哪怕是万分之一的疼痛。
Heart unwilling pain she thought he did not have relatives， long ago as his own relatives. He could have cheated her and betrayed her for his own glory， for his own promotion and fortune, and all those years of affection were but stepping stones in his career. His Childhood Romance, The Wonder Years’s life, were all part of an elaborate ruse designed to undermine the unstoppable influence of her father, who loved her most. She was foolishly willing to be betrayed, and together with him to deceive their closest people, but she thought the worst outcome is the family down on the street. Only did not think of will be life and death parting, this life no longer sunshine. The brightness that once appeared in her life, became the blackest memory in her life. She spent her best The Hours in hell because of him. In that terrible hell, no laughter, no tears, only the endless suffering from those crazy terrible people, even the joys and sorrows have become numb. Clearly so desperate, why to live, even the body is no longer able to feel the temperature, even a love of their own people do not have, why not die. The body clearly has become all over the body, but the heart has not stopped beating, why？ In that decade, she asked herself countless times in the world surrounded by iron walls. As a result, she felt numb and wanted to give up. I don’t know where the strength came from, but I just kept going. All the answers are because you don’t want to. Not reconciled to his life in the ruined beyond recognition, he was able to use her all in exchange for the opportunity to live better. Now he is in the arms of beauty, still handsome, I am afraid that never remember once that pay all of her for him. How could he？ How could he live like this. Even if you have to experience again and again the heart-wrenching pain, but also to make him feel even if it is one in ten thond pain.