《A Little Life》读后感10篇
《A Little Life》是一本由Hanya Yanagihara / 柳原汉雅著作，Doubleday出版的Hardcover图书，本书定价：USD 30.00，页数：736，文章吧小编精心整理的一些读者的读后感，希望对大家能有帮助。
《A Little Life》读后感(一)：Bye, Jude
被封面上那张twisted的脸twist了一周，我终于看完了。一开始因为男主和我都叫Jude，我猜这本书对我来说会很relatable。的确我能relate to Jude的很多心思except that我并不自残，我也没有他那惨绝人寰的童年trauma。即使他成年后遇到了很多好事（包括自己多年好友、影坛巨星Willem突然喜欢上他which I found a little bit abrupt），他也没能走出阴影。怎么可能走出那样的阴影。How could anybody.
最后的结局是他的life partner，Willem（我没用boyfriend或者husband因为我觉得他们的关系too complicated to be defined like that）死于车祸两年后他自己也自杀了。这对Jude来说是一个很好的结局了，因为被身体、精神上的痛苦控制了一生的他，for the first time in his life，可以替自己做主了（like 安陵容）。而且Jude gets over Willem的结局可能更难接受。
这个故事是一个no way out的困境，所以很depressing，让人感到绝望。而且这周我还听Billie Holiday的Lady In Satin，压抑到想吐。
文中最有趣的是作者对人物关系的描写，非常现实，非常日本。比如在W死后，Jude曾想过他愿意毫不犹豫地用Harold或Andy去换Willem的命。还有Richard和Julia这两个一开始不太起眼的角色在后来跟Jude越来越熟（尤其是Julia，她和Jude不是直接认识的），甚至超过了Malcolm和JB。可怜的Malcolm，死后几乎没得到Jude一丝念想，可以说是塑料花友情了。同理还有Willem和Harold的关系，H对W说过：Jude is not the only person we love；最后在W死后，H也坦白自己对W的想念for himself而不是因为Jude才想念他。这大概表达了他对W也是爱的——文中有大概两个chapter是以H第一人称视角写的，这两段里的you指的都是W。H和W的关系是最微妙的，有时候我会想，如果Willem上了法学院并先认识了Harold，那H会不会收养的就是同样是孤儿的W？另外我觉得作者对J&W后期的关系处理地相当完美，就是两个人把互相当做love of their life，不需要过多的解释，就是beyond普通的relationship的。哎我也说不清，总之J&W的感情so outside the norm（褒义）。
所以关系的构建，或者说缘分，我觉得真是很奇妙滴。我又会想到日剧昼颜里的纱和and北野and利佳子也，well，不是通过传统的关系（工作、学校啥的）直接认识的。考虑到作者是日本裔，这还挺make sense的，因为我接触到的美国文学/影视里似乎tend to淡化除了主要的人物关系之外的关系，让其他“不重要”的关系成为一种“默认”。但在生活中只有很少的关系是“默认”为一种存在方式的，我们和每个不同的人可能都会有不同的相处方式，而且“爱”也不可能都是简单的同一种爱。然鹅，正是这些看似irrelevant的人物关系让一个故事更加丰满呀～比如来参加Jude葬礼的人，如果被粗暴地划分为同事、朋友、家人，这也太没意思了。同事里有Jude当做mentor的Lucien，有他的colleague Sanjay who在最后也参与了大家对Jude进食监督的队伍，etc，etc。
.s. 看书的时候我会觉得，这段太惨了，希望下一段好一点。但我看到the happy years这章（which is supposed to be the happiest part of the book）的时候，我却觉得J&W在变有钱后的生活反而平淡无聊了——环游世界哪有两个人在Tribeca小公寓里住着的时候romantic——然后我就会又想看惨一点的故事。
. 我好希望这本书拍成电影~看书的时候我一直把J&W脑补成Jude Law（I KNOW，文中的Jude是个lawyer）和Ricky Martin
《A Little Life》读后感(二)：An ever-lasting and life-changing reading experience
Writing is personal, not only because it involves privacy and individual perspective but also it protects you from being self-conscious and awareness of other people critics, at least when it’s still a work in progress. Personal yet relevant and resonant with every soul it touches and strikes a chord with, that’s how writing influences the public in a mysterious way. To me, everything with a little life is familiar and vivid in a delusional and absorbing way, and that’s what propels me to keep record of the reading experience for the past four days.
The minute I got hold of the book, I am literally not able to put it down. I indeed glanced through some spoilers that it involves homosexual romance. What swept me off balance is how the chronicles of the heroes cover some of the most basic yet most bewildering real-life philosophical issues and subjects. Maybe that’s what grabbed my heart and seized my throat all 700 pages through.
Throughout his short, eventful, devastated and yet splendid life, Jude struggles and endeavors with numerous attempts for self-identifications, affections, sense of securities as well as the most basic form of human impulses, love. The journey is agonizing especially since he’s got off the wrong start where those monstrous monks in the monastery batter his self-image to pieces and made him settle. Compromise is cruel to an infant or child whose curiosity promised greatness in every humanly possible way or beyond. It annihilates their source of joy and courage and all the qualities to strive for connections with the world whether through trial and error or for those who are more fortunate natural in an incomprehensible and obscure manner. Pedophiles should be condemned and contained not only for the physical abuse but also for the mental trauma it rendered to whom they have acquired deepest trust and fondness. On that note, the world has failed and receded, consolidating the sole success of those who have demolished his self-esteem and self-efficacy, which I genuinely can’t tell, is more pivotal to atonement.
ut then, Willem, JB and Malcolm came into his life and made all the difference and everlasting impact on his craving soul, which indeed is a calling answered by God himself. He enjoyed friendship, companionship, love, security and most of all a sense of being alive for the first time. In fact, just I am writing this review I am still indulged in the first encounter they made in the Lispenard Street. That shabby apartment genuinely holds all the promise to their course of life. So young and full of vivacity yet still dipping in the air of sorrow and secrecy that keeps lingering from his past, reminding everyone of the delicate and fragile daffodil his own volition was.
ince then life has been nothing but a strenuous series of efforts for these young men. They each made huge breakthrough with their professions and profoundly established them in material terms. Yet after years of company and so much understanding each other, the author has to set a big twist there- Willem was killed in a car accident without warning which devastated Jude and lead to several attempts to put an end to his miseries and sufferings. To him, the only person he could confide in has been wiped away from the world. It felt the world was depriving his only source of joy and his only salvation from the past. He did expect condolences and concerns from Harold, Julia, JB and Andy. But it only reminded that the loss was irreversible and what was truly missing.
In retrospective, what really struck a chord with me was the constant and universal atmosphere of sorrow, as if there is no escape or rather any point of escape. Moreover how the concept and sense of time is contorted in the course and tempo of this beautiful piece. The good old days slipped by their fingers and went beyond grasp without notice yet the fervent, intense hallucinations of dear comrade made a dent and linger as if time comes to a halt. I suppose that was more than the author’s doing. That’s how we take life under scrutiny. We always forget how lucky we are when things are going smooth and how tedious and slow when hiccups and ups and downs turn up on the more bumpy course of the journey.
To put it in a nutshell, it is a revealing piece of work. Contemplate and meditate while reading is a rewarding habit that will benefit you for years to come.
《A Little Life》读后感(三)：一段人生
“You won't understand what I mean now, but someday you will: the only trick of friendship, I think, is to find people who are better than you are - not smarter, not cooler, but kinder, and more generous, and more forgiving - and then to appreciate them for what they can teach you, and to try to listen to them when they tell something about yourself, no matter how bad - or good - it might be, and to trust them, which is the hardest thing of all. But, the best, as well."
quot;Friendship was witnessing another's slow drip of miseries, and long bouts of boredom, and occasional triumphs. It was feeling honored by the privilege of getting to be present for another person's most dismal moments, and knowing that you could be dismal around him in return. "
lease don't shy away from this book for its length. I will admit, this book is hard, hard to read and hard to process. The story line is about four men fresh out of college starting a life in New York city, and it follows their friendship over the course of forty years. In the meantime, there are so many abuses, sufferings, and hopelessnesses, and the read will, almost definitely, destroy you in the end. But it is also such an important read that you'll never experience elsewhere. Here's the author's take on avoiding difficult subject matters, "Much as I hope the reader is there in this book to bear witness to Jude's life and his suffering, we equally owe it as humans to witness other humans' suffering as well, and not to turn away because it makes us uncomfortable. "
《A Little Life》读后感(四)：原来你也不快乐
A Little Life不是关于友情的，它所书写的主题是Brokenness。读完它已一年有余，我觉得我必须写点关于它的什么。是因为读时所感到的难以言表的震撼，而之所以感到震撼是因为在Jude的自我毁灭的灰烬中看到了自己的暗影。也许这也是大多数人为Jude的惨痛经历而黯然神伤的原因吧。内心深处我们都与Jude有共通之处，我们都会感到受伤，感到自己不配拥有美好的事物，感到自己有缺陷，感到自己的缺陷是咎由自取。这种非病理性的抑郁，是我们与Jude交流的桥梁。所以当读到Jude自残的片段，读到Jude无时不刻挂在嘴边的sorry，多多少少会产生共鸣。
关于A Little Life的书评读了许多，其实中差评不少。说实话这些书评都很中肯，几乎一针见血地指出了A Little Life作为一部小说的缺陷。四位主角在毕业之后事业可以说是一帆风顺，几乎都成为了行业中的顶尖人士，而这确实很奇怪。他们最终的定位为什么一定是事业的成功者？为什么不可以平凡，普通，位于社会中层甚至下层？将四人安置于社会的最顶尖的1%几乎对小说内容推进毫无帮助，却反而让情节失真，让小说泛起某种由作者引入的一厢情愿的期许的虚伪光泽。
还有人说它太长，需要被裁短。这……也许是对的吧。但其实就我个人感受而言，A Little Life的长度其实是它的优势。作为一个母语非英语的读者，在700多页粘稠而繁复的语句中跋涉，不仅是对脑力也是对体力的考验。真的，读完之后我长舒了一口气，不敢相信我竟然真的读完了它。而彼时再回顾投入其中的将近30个小时的时间，不会觉得疲倦。30个小时的时间，只是像某种建筑材料，而通过阅读，它们在现实的裂缝中构建了一个完全不同的宇宙。以前读小说时从未有过的感受。感觉自己的身体中的某一部分，住进了Jude，住进了Willem，住进了Malcom，住进了JB。但如果A Little Life被缩减到300页，没有了相应的体力付出，几乎可以说很难有这种感受。
除此之外，几乎所有的书评的矛头都指向了Jude。无论是其悲惨到让人无法信服的人生经历，还是他扭曲的心理，都会让人觉得这一个人物，小说的主要人物，其唯一的作用只是催泪。作者设置安排了所有的悲剧，只是为了将Jude一次又一次地击垮，然后对他的内心加以解剖，再通过放大镜将他的所有伤痕和血迹巨细靡遗地展现给读者。如果以这种方式理解作者的写作意图……其实也好像也不能说不对吧。这部小说的定位就是tragedy，或者顶多再掺杂一点melodrama。但之所以Jude的内心伤痕能够让读者动容，难道不是因为其实我们觉得自己和Jude也一样broken么？Jude 的人生经历确实很惨，而且用惨一个字便足以概括。但悲惨本身是无法使人落泪的，真正使我们落泪的，是共情。我们在Jude身上投射了自己，并借此找到了情绪的出口。在Jude一次次划向自己的刀片中，我们任由情绪恣肆漫溢。所有因为胆怯而未能承受的伤痛，Jude替我们承受，而我们负责体会血管清空后的空虚和轻松。我们在自我投射的想象中获得满足。虽然这种满足很难说是治愈。
是的，这部小说成功之处就在于它引起了我们身体深处被压抑被埋藏的情感。从未读过哪一本小说，像A Little Life一样如此成功地引起了对于抑郁的共鸣。就这点而言，A Little Life并不适合所有人群阅读，毕竟Jude的扭曲的思考模式（自己是劣等的，所有的苦难都是我自己找来的，我只能忍受）在人群中也并不很常见。而其实即使是那些在Jude中找到共鸣的人，也并没有谁会时时刻刻以Jude的方式思考生活——只是很偶尔，当失败的阴影浓重到使人感到窒息时。
但还是想对所有的Jude们说一句：You are worth it.
还是笑一个吧。
《A Little Life》读后感(五)：Best of the year!
It's a book that kept me reading long into the night, made me turn each page with vigor and curiosity, gave me chills and shivers over the joys and sorrows of each character, and ultimately left me feeling a bit older and tortured and yet at peace with the deeply complicated nature of humanity.
The truth is, though, I can't recommend this book to people, not without knowing them very well. Because it's a difficult journey that I can't suggest everyone take. Don't take this book lightly. But if you do choose to read it, if you choose to flip to that first page, be prepared for something inexplicable and jarring, but resilient and beautiful and ultimately worthwhile.
《A Little Life》读后感(六)：（严重剧透）一个大写的惨字
I couldn't even finished my lunch when I was reading it.
After I finished it, there's not a single day that goes by that I don't think about Jude St.Francis and the last few years of his life.
I'm literally haunted by this book.
A Little Life算是今年Man Booker呼声最高的候选，这也是我读它的原因。至于触目惊心的简介和底下哀鸿遍野的评论，我一开始是真的没当回事儿，因为我觉得自己特别抗虐。
直到看完最后一章，我揉着哭红的眼睛想：我实在是太看得起自己了。
这个世界上还有比Jude更惨的人吗？简直就跟衰神附体了一样，在16岁之前，他就没遇见过一个好人。
无父无母
养他长大的修士们，开始还只是刻薄点，但是在Jude偷东西被抓之后就集体黑化变态了，每天轮番的虐待他。
大家都是变态，带Jude逃走的Brother Luke自然也是个变态，可以说他比其他修士更恐怖，因为他很温柔和善，从不打骂Jude，但就是他把Jude一点点变成了一个男妓，一个用自残来发泄愤怒和仇恨的孩子。
接着是孤儿院，孤儿院里的每一个管事儿的，也都是变态。
当Jude逃出孤儿院的时候，为了去波士顿，靠出卖自己的身体来攒路费，所以每一个他搭上的卡车司机都是变态。
最后是Dr.Traylor，大变态，直接毁了Jude的身体。
然后他得救了，进了大学，交了三个好朋友，被所有的教授喜爱。
作者用了七百多页的篇幅来写Jude，还是倒叙，所以他的前半生基本上是贯穿全书的，我在阅读的过程中，时常有一种被困在噩梦里的感觉，不知道Jude这样痛苦的一生，究竟什么时候才能有所好转，或者，有没有可能好转了。
作者用详细的近乎冰冷的笔触，把Jude受虐的细节完整的暴露在读者面前，每次看到关于他腿上化脓的伤口的描写，我都感到毛骨悚然，每次看到他小时候因为无法承受愤怒和痛苦，而狠狠得把自己往墙上撞的时候，我都得把Kindle关上，深深得吸一口气，再刷刷AO3上的甜文，才能接着读。看到他被困在Dr.Traylor的地下室里，在心里对着不知道是谁祈祷着"Please, please help me"，但是直到最后也没有人来帮他的时候，我几乎强忍着才能不哭出来。可能，这种坏人一个接一个出现的情节有些假，但是在这本书里，“意识到Jude的故事只是一个故事，是假的” 这个想法，才是真正支撑我读完它的原因。
Jude自杀了三次，前两次，他的每一丝心理变化和每一点情绪波动都被作者详细的写了出来，我读的时候简直有一种被困在了Jude身体里的感觉。而且关于这一段，作者不光从Jude的角度写，还从他的养父和朋友的角度来写一个濒临崩溃试图自杀的人究竟是什么样的。可是他最后真的自杀成功，作者却只是寥寥几笔带过，我想她可能也觉得Jude的人生到此为止，也是终于解脱了吧。
当然，作为一个苦逼读者，我也终于解脱了。。。。
A Little Life这本书，我觉得不适合给所有的人推荐，如果你能忍受主角在七百多页的篇幅里被从头虐到尾基本没过过一天好日子的话，那就去看看吧。
反正，不管你喜不喜欢它，这都是一本读了以后就不会再忘记的书。
《A Little Life》读后感(七)：A journey to A Little Life
One thing I learned from this journey is that you'd better be well prepared yourself to hurt and be hurt when you truly live your life as it's depressing and haunting mostly time.A journey which is so vividly as if you were actually living through their life.It keeps challenging you as if you're being allowed to a world which is miserable and joyless that you don't even have the language to describe.
You just keep questioning how can someone like Jude who brought people so much pleasure but to himself nothing live a life which seems to hold nothing but bitterness.After sixteen,he finally made it to Boston and had a chance to restart his life,there comes friends making him see the world anew,like something he hadn't know he would be deserved until it had actually happened to him.
Things would be way more simple if people just accepted who they are now,but it's so undeniable each one was evidence of something wistful and inflicted.It always there,in unexpected moments, it would muscle its way to his consciousness,haunting him.His body's desperate attempt to heal itself by try to kill part of itself still unsettled him after all those years.After the shame and physical abuse Cody bought him,he had eventually committed to suicide,but it didn't work out for some reasons.
Harold had said in a letter delivered to Jude: you realize that no matter what gets damaged, life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss, sometimes wonderfully. William is the wonder,the miracle who loved him so wholly,the past and the now.Just a lifetime's worth of wishes coming true,everything was in equilibrium and perfection.There was never to be a beat later,everything shifted,and the wonderful life just vanished.William died in a car accident along with Malcolm and his wife.
Life turned out to be what it was used to be,he just die inside.how hard is it to keep alive someone who didn't want to be.Jude chosen to go after all those struggles with his friends and families.
There are so many things to learn from those kindness about how to love someone wholly,accepting helps from others when it's needed and appropriate,valuing the friendship and being a good friend.
lt;The language is so simple and touching that you just can't give up even in those darkest parts.A wonderful book with wisdom deep inside.>
《A Little Life》读后感(八)：The four items needed to be solved
边看边记，都是当时的心得体会。
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…he made lists of what he needed to resolve, and fast, in the following year: his work (at a standstill), his love life (nonsexist), his sexuality (unresolved), his future (uncertain). The four items were always the same, although sometimes their order of priority changed. Also consistent was his ability to precisely diagnose their status, coupled with his utter inability to provide any solutions.
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…a metaphor for life in general: things get broken, and sometimes they get repaired, and in most cases, you realize that no matter what gets damaged, life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss, sometimes wonderfully.
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最近的几篇都是关于Jude，真是一个让人心疼的孩子，这么优秀这么渺小，这么脆弱这么坚韧，这么自卑这么强大。
第一次被他惊到是在介绍episode那里，想象一个人蜷着身子像一只小虾米，但是又坚强地默默扛下来。
第二次是在cut，对于伤口的描述让我现在还有阴影。手臂好像长出了一张嘴，汩汩地往外流血，鲜血冒着泡儿像温泉水一样止不住,bubbling.
接着是Ana,他的social worker。Ana在临死前想的最后一件事居然是给Jude列大学新生购物清单。
还有Andy，作为Jude的“独家医生”是一个严厉又柔软的角色。Jude会习惯性自残，割伤自己，每次都是Andy帮他收拾烂摊子。Andy也是Jude唯一相信的医生，在心理上也是提供了许多支持。
然后是他和Harold的故事，Harold爱才，又很疼惜他，侧面反映了他的优秀。听他讲pure math和applied math的区别，真的深深被吸引，看着他一步一步从law school到judge的助手，又到US Attorney’s Office, 这真的就是优秀的人的路径。
一个弱小到时刻准备着失去友情，失去所有的人，一个温暖的爱着所有爱着他的人的天才，正是因为他的善良和自己内心的强大，才吸引了这么多善良的人，围在他身边，帮助他，宠着他。就像是四兄弟中的忙内一样，受着大家的宠爱。
如果a little life要拍成电影，我希望Eddie Redmayne可以演，就像他在 万物理论 和 神奇动物在哪里 里展现的那种一瘸一拐的天才模样，还有丹麦女孩里的别扭，就是我心中脆弱天才Jude的样子。
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关于友情
He took pleasure in his friendships, and it didn’t hurt anyone, so who cared if it was codependent or not？ And anyway, how was a friendship any more codependent than a relationship？ Why was it admirable when you were twenty-seven but creepy when you were thirty-seven？ Why wasn’t friendship as good as a relationship？ Why wasn’t it even better？ It was two people who remained together, day after day, bound not by sex or physical attraction or money or children or property, but only by the shared agreement to keep going, the mutual dedication to a union that could never be codified. Friendship was witnessing another’s slow drip of miseries, and long bouts of boredom, and occasional triumphs. It was feeling honored by the privilege of getting to be present for another person’s most dismal moments, and knowing that you could be dismal around him in return.
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渐渐有点受不了Jude的玻璃心了。虽说不至于“我弱我有理”但这种别扭的心态真的是。直面自己的physical challenge，坦然接受朋友的帮助，这才是真正的勇敢呀。固执地要坚强，要表现得hardy，超出能力范围的坚持并不是真的勇敢啊。每个人都要小心翼翼地照顾你，不仅要帮助你，还要伺候你的玻璃心。
或许这种别扭只有真正经历过的人才会懂吧。