克制

　　克制

　　我没有能力，只能选择最差的一切，不能埋怨任何人。人总是这样，能力不足，欲望太多，才有那么多的愁绪。我喜欢苹果，却每次都只能到水果摊位买最便宜的那一种。有一次闺密生日，我去买苹果送她，那是唯一一次，我买的最贵的苹果，我自己都没舍得买。所愿的只是我希望自己能够靠自己的力量养活自己，怎么就那么难。有自己的房子和车子，有稳定的工作，固定但足够生活的收入，真的很难，原来我的追求也这样简单。就差没有能力。要是我有欢乐颂中安迪的能力，那我就不会那么苦闷。不愿将就，前提是要给自己提供舒适的生活，不用住出租屋，不用担心一日三餐，做到这样，才有资格做自己想做的事，才能拒绝自己不愿意将就的人。我每天都要强迫自己，强迫自己，学习学习，相信自己的付出，总有回报的！努力书写自己的人生故事，努力让自己走在自立自强的生活道路上。多希望能够开个小店，不用很多客人，足够温饱，闲下来的时候，好好写点什么，看好看的书，远离世俗的喧嚣吵闹。

　　Restraint

　　I have no ability， can only choose the worst of all， can not blame anyone. People always like this, lack of ability, desire too much, there are so many melancholy. I like apples, but I can only buy the cheapest one at the fruit stand. I once bought an apple for my best friend on her birthday, and that was the only time I ever bought the most expensive apple I could afford. All I want is to be able to support myself on my own. Why is that so hard. Having my own house and car, having a stable job, and having a regular but sufficient income to live on, is really hard, and my pursuit turns out to be so simple. All that’s missing is the ability. If I had the power of Andy in the Ode to Joy, I wouldn’t be so depressed. If you don’t want to settle, you have to give yourself a comfortable life, you don’t have to live in a rented house, you don’t have to worry about Three Meals a Day, and you have to be able to do what you want, and you have to be able to say no to people you don’t want to settle with. I have to force themselves every day, forced themselves to learn, believe that their pay, there is always a return！ Efforts to write their own life story, efforts to make themselves walk in the path of self-reliance and self-reliance in life. Many hope to open a small shop, not many guests, enough to eat, leisure down, well-written something, look at the book, away from the secular noise.